One of the saddest things

One of the saddest things for me?

When I go to my facebook page and see both my daughter and her ex-boyfriend's photos displayed, one on top of the other, on the left side of my page under the "Friends" heading.

It's been two years now since M and T broke up and it still breaks my heart every time I think of the hurt they caused each other. 

M always said, "I'm going to marry him" and I would downplay the remark by telling her she was only 16 (or 17 or 18) and that a lot could happen before she was ready to get married.  But secretly I hoped and believed that T could very well be her future husband.  I think I wanted M to avoid the pitfalls of dating lots of guys to find "the one," but I also loved T (still do) and hoped that the first boy M gave her heart to could also be the one man who would love her forever. 

I wish we all could go back in time and relive those months from the last half of 2009 until the spring of 2010 and find a way for M and T to make their relationship survive and thrive despite the challenge of attending different colleges. 

I wish T was still in M's life, still the love of her life. 

I wish she was still telling me, "I'm going to marry him."