Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Struggling

This is a difficult time for me.  I'm: trying to clear out a house in a short amount of time, worrying if the house sale will actually go through, adjusting to having an adult child in our home again, working through grief over the suicide of a classmate/friend of one of my daughters, and dealing with seasonal depression and envy.

In short, I'm a mess.  I have the majority of my Christmas presents wrapped, but I still need to buy presents for some people.  I have Christmas cards and photos, but I need to put the two together and get them in the mail.  I know what cookies and candy I want to make to give to a few friends, but I'm not sure if I have all of the necessary ingredients and I'm not sure when I'm going to find the time to make these treats.

I can totally relate to that old commercial where the frazzled woman would wail, "Calgon, take me away."  Yet, even if I had the time, my tub isn't remotely clean enough to contemplate indulging in a relaxing soak.

Instead of longing to turn to the refreshment of a bathtub filled with warm, bubbly, scented water, I need to turn to the true refreshment found only in the Word of God -- the Word that satisfies completely and quenches all thirst, the Word that cleanses and heals, the Word that speaks to my heart and will last forever.  I need to drink in the Word, deeply and often, and I need to immerse myself in the Word as eagerly as I would jump into a swimming pool on a hot summer day.

I need to take my struggles and depression and worry and surrender them to the Word made Flesh: Jesus, Emmanuel, God with us.  

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